Friday, November 13, 2009


(Please, read this slow, as it was meant to be. If you are happy, this has nothing to do with your happiness. It has nothing to do with you on a personal level whatsoever.

Every once in a Blue Moon,

and we all know how rare of an occurrence that is,

I find myself walking under such a moon.


As blue as I can ever remember it .

As happy, upbeat and carefree as I try to make my life out to be, now and again, I too, succumb to the effects of...........well...........'the blues'. Why? Does it matter? It happens. Earlier tonight, I found myself out walking under a cloudless, wondrous fall evening. Alone! Tonight, my heart and my soul, were feeling empty and..........yes..........LONELY. WAH! Actually, yes! I did cry. Don't ask me why. I just did! The tears fell. Freely! Copiously! And warm. Against my now fuzzy, wintry cheeks. What gives? Is it because I am reading and feeling the love out there amongst others of our tightly knit Blog Community who have or are sharing their heart with others. No matter how you personally feel, if you have the opportunity to share this evening with those you love....feel envied! At least by me. What you have is a gift, a treasure. Indeed, hard earned and harder to keep! not...... take it for granted....I know....I wouldn't. I couldn't. I never did.......and …....I never would!

The lyrics, of an old Beatles song kept filtering through my brain, as I continued to walk, stride after painful stride (torn knee cartilage will do that to you) but this, has nothing to do with feeling my feeling BLUE! Really, all that I am asking is that you …........


Help, I need somebody,
Help, not just anybody,
Help, you know I need someone, help.

When I was younger, so much younger than today,
I never needed antibody's help in any way.
But now these days are gone, I'm not so self assured,
Now I find I've changed my mind and opened up the doors.

Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round.
Help me, get my feet back on the ground,
Won't you please, please help me.

And now my life has changed in oh so many ways,
My independence seems to vanish in the haze.
But every now and then I feel so insecure,
I know that I just need you like I've never done before.

Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round.
Help me, get my feet back on the ground,
Won't you please, please help me.

When I was younger, so much younger than today,
I never needed anybody's help in any way.
But now these daya are gone, I'm not so self assured,
Now I find I've changed my mind and opened up the doors.

Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round.
Help me, get my feet back on the ground,
Won't you please, please help me, help me, help me, oooh.

As I, would help you!..........CHEERS!


smiles4u said...

(((((Bogey)))))) I am reaching my hand out to you, through my computor screen. I am hugging you while you cry on my shoulder. I am sorry that you are feeling so low and lonely. I wish that I could give you a real live hug right now. It makes me sad that you cried but I do think tears can be healing and it tells me that you are real. It seems like you are always so strong and yes happy and upbeat. So it's hard reading that your sad. But, you are human so you are going to still be vulnerable to these emotions. Especially if it's a desire of your heart to not be alone.

Someone as great as you deserves to have someone great in his life...and Bogey please don't be thinking that I am just saying this...I do NOT say things unless I mean them. I do know what it's like to be and feel alone and to see happy couples can be painful. Believe me, I do not take for granted what I have in my life. I know all too well what it's like to not have all of this.

I have always loved this song. Thank you for sharing the actual lyrics and not just the song.

Bogey, I am really thankful that you had the courage to share your honest feelings with us tonight. As sad as it makes me to know you are feeling this way, I am glad that I can send loving energy your way and pray for you. I wish I could do more. I wish that distance was not an issue. But, I am here to help in any way I can. Please know, that if you want to talk I am here to listen.

Sending you lots of love and hugs tonight. Peace be with you my dear friend. Lori

Natalie said...

Love and a hug to you, my friend across the waves.It is a horrible place to be at times.It will happen for you.....she just has to be really special is all. :)xx

Michelle said...

Hey. I am so with you!



Lori ann said...

Dear Bogey,
I hear you. I say what Lori said also. And I think putting it out in the Universe is a wonderful idea, my daughter and I just had this talk the other day. She wants so much, Love, marriage. She's got alot on her plate going to school full time to get her degree, and she's a single parent. She said to me she should feel fulfilled with all she has. But she wants more.
All I can say is in life I think everything is better when shared, and we ALL need someone to share it with.
I told her because I believe it so much, and I want to tell you too, It will happen. Because you want it, because you are such a good person, and because you've put it out there.
Keep your eyes and heart open Bogey, it'll happen. You just have to believe.

lakeviewer said...

I ditto the words above. All of them. Feeling blue is a human thing. We need to feel special, loved, part of a community. Bogey, join in a church, a club, a volunteer organization. Make those contacts, because we all need to feel touched and present in somebody's life.

People in blogland are very generous and kind. But we all need more, real people to cuddle up with, to share. Go out and join, Bogey. You have a lot of love to give. Go.

And, when you think you are the only one feeling that way, you'll meet someone who feels the same. She out there. I promise you, she is.

Bogey said...

Ladies, please consider this little message as a collective thank you to all of you for all of your very, very kind and warm thoughts and words. You all touched my heart with your sentiments at a moment when I needed to hear something like that. Fortunately, these periods are fleeting but none the less, temporarily gut wrenching. Today, the sky was a cloudless blue and the sun shone brilliantly. The air was warm, almost spring like. Getting out into the fresh air and mingling about a little also was a good dose of necessary medicine. One day, I'm sure that there will be another special someone waiting for me just around the corner. Perhaps I am just on the wrong block and have to keep on walking. For now, I am feeling blessed to have you all as a very special group of friends and I will not forget your open generosity. Bless you all.

ms toast burner said...

I pretty much could have written this post, Bogey. I know how you feel.

Shammickite said...

I know how you feel, I think the words of that Beatles song are truly poignant. The Beatles were definitely Genius material.
I'm busy busy most of the week with various acivities, but Saturday nights are mostly spent in front of the telly... no Saturday night dates for me... and I hate being alone. So I can commiserate with you....

Bogey said...

I hear ya MTB!And I can understand what you are going thru right now as well.

Shammy, my schedule is pretty much the same also. Go, go, go all week long and then pffft!. There just doesn't appear to be too much going on in the community right now. I guess I will have to try harder is all!

Hilary said...

Bogey, you and Shammie are not all that far apart geographically. You two could meet right here in Mississauga! OK, I'm done playing Bloggie Matchmaker but I just wanted to add my thoughts to the group... and let you know that I care about you and hope you're feeling less blue. Things tend to change when you least expect them to.

Shammickite said...

Watch out Bogey, she's a matchmaking fiend!

Bogey said...

Thanks for the pick me up Hilary......yes feeling less blue. Like everybody, sometimes you feel it when you least expect it and it seems to hit a nerve the wrong way. Perspective! That's all I need sometiimes. As for the matchmaking...don't go abusing nice people like Shammi.

And don't worry Shammi, I know Hilary's heart is in the right place.

Nancy said...

Bogey, I am sending you a great big virtual hug. I have been married 29 years, but I can still remember that feeling when I was single. I hope and pray and wonderful woman will find you this winter...

James said...

Hi Bogey. Somehow missed this post until now. I really hope that your blues have passed and your knees are feeling fine. It's not right that a person with a heart of gold should feel so bad.


Bogey said...

Thank you Nancy for your warm thoughts. As I've said, every once in awhile, it just kind of sneaks up on you when you least expect it. Laying it on the line just makes it easier to come to grips with. It happens to all of us I'm sure. Besides, you have to be ready to move on and I know, I am not ready. Just trying to take care of me for now.

Hey James! No worries. Blues are gone......knees still ache. Tore the cartilage in my left knee jumping over the boards thinking I was still 25! Now the left knee has joined the right. When I walk, I sound like an advertisement for Rice Krispies. Snap, Crackle...POP!

Michelle said...

Oh ((((Bogey)))) take an extra Big hug on top of all the others from someone who really does understand.

I was single till I was 39. On good days you fill your life with business, but on bad days... oyyy. On bad days you feel like your heart is going to explode with all the longing for more that just takes your breath away.

I've cried my fair share of tears to the moon. One particular night was actually a blue moon... how apt is that? I sat under a blue moon and did some very blue moon howling.

A month later I met a nice man on the internet and a year later I married him. When I met him he'd been single for over 30 years and fairly resigned to being a permanent bahelor. I certainly shook his life upside down! ;-)

I did learn one important thing from having been the lonely person as well as the loved one - you appreciate things more when you wait a longer time to get them.

I hope that's your story too, Bogey.