Monday, May 25, 2009

Manic Monday!

Kind of wondering here why it is one day I could be feeling like I'm walking on a cloud, (without the help of any mind altering drugs I might add). Then the next day, I'm feeling like I'm walking in some dark, dank, endless tunnel. Where the only sound I hear is the blood gurgling through my brain, beating on the inside of my skull like John Bonham pounding on his Pearls! My chest is tight almost like somebody reaching in and squeezing my heart. I can't explain it! When I left this morning, the sun was shining against a brilliant blue background and the air was crisp and fresh. And for some reason, it went down hill from there! Not work so much, just my mood!

By lunch time I was feeling like a freaking bear. Any unnecessary noise began to irritate me and then, to me at least, it all became unnecessary. The office chit chat suddenly became annoying and I felt like I was going to snap. Tried to blog hop a bit at lunch but the brain was pre-occupied so, just in case I said anything stupid to anybody today, I apologize. After lunch was no better. Had a scheduled meeting for 4 o'clock and was trying to put the last touches on a job which I was going to need. Normally I thrive on this kind of stuff. I prefer being busy and can usually juggle quite well, when my brain is functioning properly. I just felt like I was balancing on the edge for some reason. It almost felt like a panic attack and I just wanted out.

Hung around for an extra hour or so tonight just to map out tomorrow. It's just a little bit better when fewer people are around crashing in on my bad mood. Had another meeting scheduled for 8 pm which was going well for the most part. Then, while I was speaking somebody cut in and broke my train of thought. Not good! Like I've said, I don't hide my emotions too well. My eyes said what I knew my mouth shouldn't. Less damaging that way. Monday's are always long and normally I don't care. Today, it just felt like I wanted to be somewhere else......anywhere else!

7 comments:

Sarah Lulu said...

Breathe .....

Funnily I wrote my blog about my mood too ...

Nancy said...

Time for a vacation?

Michelle said...

Sounds like my day yesterday Bogey.....tomorrow will e better :)

Natalie said...

Sounds awful. Poor you. :(

Anonymous said...

Been there, done that, bought the CD! It is weird when those moments hit, isn't it? I always walk away from my wee episodes thinking, "What the hell was that? And WHO is living inside of my body?"

James said...

Sounds terrible. If this doesn't go away soon or starts happening often I think you should see a doctor.

Hope you feel better soon.

Bogey said...

Thanks for the concern everybody...not sure what's happening. It feels like something tried squatting in my brain space only they forgot to pay the rent! Took a 'ME' day today and just went on a walkabout! This too shall pass. Hope all your days were good ones!